When I started this program, a show I’d long been dreaming of doing, the better part of two years ago, I had a child about to turn two and another one on the verge of joining our family. Even then, getting prepared for, and then recording, the show was a delicate balancing act between being a dedicated father and husband and contributing something meaningful, at least in my estimation, to the library community. These past few months have presented some challenges on the family side (mostly in the form of significant, recurring illness) that have me rethinking how I prioritize those components of my life that are competing for my energy.
In short, it’s time to devote more of my headspace to being daddy. Toward that end, and with a heavy heart, I’m putting the show on hiatus. I’m hesitant to declare it a permanent vacation, as situations change and I’ve been known to change my mind, but that’s a distinct possibility.
Couple of things I should say with regard to this. It’s not a decision I make lightly and it in no way reflects my enthusiasm for what we do here. I love producing this program. I love the conversations. I love the people who’ve joined me on this journey. I know some of them will be genuinely disappointed. For this, I am sorry.
I’m willing to consider alternative arrangements (less frequency, guest hosting, etc.), but this is only the most visible of a number of changes I’m making toward reclamation of my extra-curricular time. Please understand that the problem for me is not so much the hosting of the show, which is only an hour of my time per week. It’s the never-ending involvement: the slave-like attention to my feed reader, the setting up of blog posts, the reading and re-reading of proposed conversation starters. All worthwhile activites that I enjoy, but that require a certain constant level of engagement which forces me to make compromises with the rest of my priorities. I’m making a conscious decision to not make those compromises anymore.
If someone out there in listener land thinks they are up for this kind of engagement and would like to consider taking on the responsibilities of running the show, I’m open to talking about it. Yes, it’s my baby. Yes, I’m protective of it. But I’m capable of letting go, as I ultimately did with the Carnival of the Infosciences, my first LIS child. Just know what you’re getting into before you drop me a line (greg.schwartz at gmail). I find it unlikely that anyone will want to take the reins though, given that I waited a few years for someone to make a show like this happen before I did and it never happened. And even though I tried to make it take as little of my time as possible (so that it might be sustainable), it still takes a not-insignificant amount of time and energy.
Thank you all for listening and participating through 71 awesome, one-of-a-kind episodes.